PAISLY

This is another chapter in our life but another reoccurrence. I find myself in the doctor’s office every month either for a checkup, shots or ear infections. Of course it seems like the ear infections happen at the beginning of the week and lead all the way to Friday where I am left with the weekend full of tears, sorrow, pain and sadness for my daughter Paisly. She is now nineteen months and not once has the doctor considered tubes. I do not want to look into an ear nose and throat doctor because then David and I have to schedule a surgery to follow. It breaks my heart that every time this happens she is cutting teeth which leads to more pain. I often though when she was younger that it was because of the pacifier but again after her first birthday I decided to only let her use it during nap/bed time. I read articles about how the pacifier will increase ear infections and also slow down their speech. The speech is not the problem. She has a vocabulary of almost thirty words and defiantly knows that she is miss independent which is hilarious at times. I often worry how she will react once I fully take out the pacifier or better yet sleeping in her own room. These are the choices parents take when they decided to become parents. It is a blessing to have a child and become a mother. Although, once you take on these responsibilities it often brings different emotions as a parent. I often wonder if I am missing out on the time spent with her because I have school during the days or homework once she goes to bed. I know that I am raising her in a home where she is loved, accepted, valued and nurtured. Entering the Education department I often see kids who suffer with a lot of ADHD and Autism which sometimes leads to very bright kids. I decided when I first got pregnant that I would enter the Head Start Program since I was working full-time and attending MSSU. It has worked out great other than people often say it is just for poor people who can afford anything living off the government. Well, actually it is for people who do not make much money and a full time student BUT shouldn’t every child have the opportunity to learn? YES! Why does every judge a person by their cover? It should matter about the education and the future. It just annoys me so much that i would love to teach lower-class students or even go to another country. As for this blog Paisly is now telling me UP MAMA. That means it is time for me to spend time with her in this beautiful weather with our new dog Charlie. Enjoy.